“You are not really capable of being tired, but you are very capable of wearying yourself. (T47)”
Affirmation: “I am not really capable of being tired”
Prior to studying this passage, we may feel that our concepts of “being tired” and “wearying” ourselves mean the same. They do not. Being tired suggests an outward invasion upon our bodies, something that is “done” to us. We can easily recognize, though, that wearying ourselves is an internal matter; we are doing this unto ourselves.
The two concepts thus can be seen as very different. Projection makes perception, and being tired would be a conceivable invasion from beyond ourselves if we could actually be influenced by the world’s actions. The theoretical foundation of the Course makes clear that the world does nothing to us; we only think that it does. We are doing this unto ourselves. With this realization, we are solely in the driver’s seat.
In the workaday world, this philosophical interpretation of the influence of the world may seem far from the truth. Only in our quiet moments of reflection is it likely that a glimmering of the truth of this teaching of the Course will become apparent. When we stop long enough to be introspective, we can see that we are wearying ourselves as we go about our daily activities. A simple change of mind can make the most onerous tasks seem more palatable. And we will recognize, in our quiet moments, that we can be strong and not tired, however much we actually do. Frequently a change of attitude is all that is needed. But this change is spiritual, and we may need a miracle to see its realization. Pray for that miracle.
May this Thanksgiving Day I realize the truth that wearying myself is something that I do to myself. It can be undone by a quiet moment of reflection.
Thank you that the world does nothing to me. I only thought that it did. And this includes the thought that I am tired. In this busy season of Advent, may we learn that being tired is not actually done by the world to us, but wearying ourselves is done to ourselves by ourselves.