“Your starting point is truth, and you must return to your Beginning. Much has been seen since then, but nothing has really happened. Your Self is still in peace, even though your mind is in conflict. You have not yet gone back far enough, and that is why you become so fearful. As you approach the Beginning, you feel the fear of the destruction of your thought system upon you as if it were the fear of death. (T51)”
Affirmation: “Your starting point is truth”
This is a difficult passage; it hints at a philosophical backdrop for the Course.
We are told that we are actually “returning,” even though we have never actually left Heaven. This returning leads us to the Beginning, before the ego, in its madness, was made. Naturally, to the ego, its own destruction is terrifying. We can perhaps gauge the amount of ego still in us by the fearful nature of our thinking as we study the Course.
“Nothing has really happened.” Here is the point made again that we are living an illusion, and should any of us really fear an illusion?
As I study the Course, I may become fearful. This is because my ego senses its elimination.
Help me to realize that this fear can be abated by Your strength. Help me to realize that the elimination of the ego is what I really want.