“A brother separated from yourself, an ancient enemy, a murderer who stalks you in the night and plots your death, yet plans that it be lingering and slow; of this you dream. Yet underneath this dream is yet another, in which you become the murderer, the secret enemy, the scavenger and the destroyer of your brother and the world alike. (T584)”
1 – Nightmares in an Illusory World
These are the deplorable dreams that we dream in an illusory world. This is why the world seems so hard. We think that both our brother and ourselves are “murderers.” We have nightmares, and this passage details one of the worst. We blame ourselves for these nightmares that we live in our illusory world. We think that we mean our brother and sister ill. And that God will not forgive us.
2 – The Ego Speaks Nonsense
But all of this is simply the nonsense taught to us by the ego. The ego is a part of our belief about ourselves (from the Text), but we are not doomed to remain in that part. We can drop the belief that the ego does anything good, because it never does. And when life moves to undo the ego, we suffer, for we often feel humiliated by false pride. We must leave behind the ego, let it wither away, if we are to have peace and joy consistently. No joy brought by the ego exists that was not paid for by tears (an ACIM tenet). But we would weep no more; we would find joy in our spirits, and the way to that joy is to see the ultimate equality of all our brothers and sisters with ourselves. We will all eventually share the gifts of God. Presently, some know more, but this is not a lasting condition. All will eventually share everything. We are meant to share. That is why we learn through our relationships–special turned holy. We need to realize that our brothers and sisters are not meant to be held apart from ourselves, with us thinking that we are “better” in any way. This is not the pathway that A Course in Miracles would lead us down.
3 – Bring on the Holy Spirit’s Happy Dreams
Until we leave these evil dreams behind, we will be immune to the “happy dreams the Holy Spirit brings. (WB270)” May we leave these evil dreams behind soon.
I would dream happy dreams today. I would not project from my ego anything that would be disturbing to experience in this illusory world. I do have that power, that is, my real Self does. But my personal self does not have this much control. And so often I find myself lost in my personal self, a self that still is sometimes in the control of an ego that has not yet withered away.
I know that when I ask for happy dreams, I find myself experiencing a much happier world. The Holy Spirit does seem to listen and to respond, though I do not read this specifically in A Course in Miracles. But the Holy Spirit is Your Voice, and Your Guide for me, and I thank You today for making this so.
May the day be met with courage and resiliency. May I know Your peace in the midst of every busy doing on which You send me.