“The ego believes that by punishing itself it will mitigate the punishment of God. (T84-85)”
Affirmation: “The ego believes. . .mitigate the punishment of God.”
1 – An Explanation
This passage seems to explain masochism. We think that if we cause pain to ourselves first, then God’s punishment of us (in which we erroneously believe) will be lessened.
2 – Insane Thinking
This is insane thinking. The ego is insane. Let us not forget this Course concept.
3 – We Do Not Have to Punish Ourselves
We in our egoistic thinking do not have to punish ourselves at all. To do so actually is the reverse of what we want, for any number of reasons, including the fact that punishing ourselves strengthens the ego. We want to let the ego wither away. In no way does God punish us. This concept of the Course is in line with the New Testament, but opposed to the Old Testament. May we accept Jesus’s teaching in both the Course and the New Testament, and know God as a loving and accepting God who wants only the best for us. Anything else we have unconsciously chosen, and this can be changed with the right understanding, and the right reflection upon what we are actually doing to ourselves.
4 – Healing
It is true that we can seek guidance and often be told the way to proceed in any affliction. This does not mean that we avoid other healers and depend only on our minds. Jesus says in A Course in Miracles that pills are a form of “spell,” but that if we are not strong enough, we need to turn to medications as a compromise approach to healing. To do without the medications might raise the fear level, which is the last thing that we want to do. (These are Text tenets.)
5 – Jesus Is Near
So we seek for healing on whatever level we can, knowing that the healer who is Jesus is never very far from us. He promises us that he will come in response to one unequivocal call (from the Text).
May I know that there is no need for me to punish myself for anything that I have done. I may know guilt, and this is a form of punishment. God would never punish; it is always us that are doing this.
May my ego wither away. I have prayed for this often, and so I have not accepted the truth of this promise that it can wither away. May I accept this promise now and forevermore.