“It is impossible that the prayer of the heart remain unanswered in the perception of the one who asks. If he asks for the impossible, if he wants what does not exist or seeks for illusions in his heart, all this becomes his own. The power of his decision offers it to him as he requests. Herein lie hell and Heaven. (M-21.3)”
Affirmation: “May I ask for only what is true and real.”
1 – Personal Experience
I have been lost in illusions through one particular period early in my adult life. My “prayer of the heart” was answered, and I was asking for what did not exist and was asking for illusion. And they both came.
2 – Not Real
But was this real? Indeed, no. And God would have us to ask only for reality, the real world. He will be there to see that we get the real world.
3 – Lost in the Ego
We are largely lost in the ego when we ask for what does not exist and for illusions. Certainly I myself had, toward the end of my illusory journey, had discovered A Course in Miracles. And within six months I had emerged from a 14-year illusion. This miracle did not come of anything that I did. I do believe that the Divine came into play. And I have been mightily grateful for God’s action ever since.
4 – God Will Protect Us
I did not ask for anything that was bad for me. I learned a great deal in that 14 years. A Course in Miracles says that God will protect us when we ask for what is bad for ourselves. It is no more than what a loving earthly father would do for his children. (Paraphrases from ACIM.)
5 – A Kind of Hell
But we can make a kind of hell for ourselves when we ask for what does not exist or for illusions. We need to test our prayer of the heart, to see that it is the right prayer. And only a heartfelt desire to know and to do God’s Will will accomplish this miracle. Especially when one’s force of will (informed by the ego) is very strong.
Thank You for walking with me through that 14 years in my early adulthood. You knew what was best, and You, for the vast majority of the time, did not give me the “green light” to pray for what I wanted. And so I didn’t pray for this dream, except for a brief three days, when the green light came through–not important in a 14-year journey. Thank You for leading me to the very real life that You did plan for me. And I have no regrets. Part of what I was living was something that You authorized.
Be with me in the twilight years of my life. Be with me for excellent physical and emotional health. Help me to help others, and to attract to myself only what is Your highest and best. May my thankfulness for the wonderful life that confronts me be something that You can see and acknowledge.
Be with all of us as we walk through the day, as we take journeys without distance, and finally find our home in You.