“Admit now your desire to rest, a desire that could make you weep and make you wish to sleep an endless sleep. If you but understood the energy required to keep the world of your illusion in its place, you would understand the rest that will simply come of giving up your need to do so. (A Course of Love, 12.7)”
1 – Exerting Energy
I find the idea interesting that we are exerting energy to keep illusions in place, and that we will feel more rested when we have given up this essentially heartless task. The world is here, once again, defined as illusion (A Course in Miracles said “dreams”). We do project our interior to the outside of our seeing eyes. We make what we view first within. If hate finds a place in our hearts, we will see a hateful world. On the contrary, if love finds a place in our hearts, we will view a loving world. Cannot we see the wisdom in this interpretation? Cannot we realize that when we see others who are conflicted, we ourselves are at that moment conflicted, and we are conflicted first?
2 – Hugh Prather
Hugh Prather makes the latter point very precisely. He notes that when he and his wife Gayle see couples in public who need to have something “fixed,” then at that moment the two of them seem to need to have something “fixed” in their normally loving relationship. How could it be otherwise? And is not this dynamic something that can be noticed, easily, in daily life?
3 – Fixing the Outer / Inner
When we have drunk too much coffee, are we not prone to pick a fight with our nearest and dearest? We are too stressed from the caffeine, and we therefore react. We do not act for no good reason, but we try to fix the outer when the inner has been compromised.
4 – Rest Today
Today would be a good day to decide that we will rest rather than try to prop up the world of illusion by wishing for that which we don’t have. Just turn inward when stressed, and know that this too shall pass.
5 – Invite Rest
The only way to get rest is to invite it. And this we do when we stop trying to make this world into something that it is not.
I would rest today from my weariness. I know that I am not nearly as weary as some of my brothers and sisters, but the ego has not yet died in me, and keeping the illusions going has sapped my strength. I would end this foolishness today.
Thank You for the joy that You have given me today. I know that the joy comes from You, even as I struggle against egoic impulses. Be with me as I leave the struggle behind and simply rest.