“All your reasons for fear-based living have been discounted one by one. And yet you dare not try to live without it. Why? Because of the thoughts of the ego-mind. The ego-mind is concerned only with its own survival but it has you convinced it is your survival that depends on it. (The Treatises of A Course of Love: Treatise on the Art of Thought, 3.5)”
Affirmation: “I would leave fear behind permanently today.”
1 – Anxiety
Most of us have known anxiety far more than we would like to admit. This is not a personal failing, but just evidence that the ego-mind has not withered away. We can make a determination that we will not reinforce the fear, when it arises, but take a timeout and commune with God. We can and will relax in such communion. Gradually the times of anxiety and fear will lessen, and we will know that we are making progress. Watch for hints of intuition that will lead us out of this long-time trouble. Listen for what to do and say that will weaken the ego. And then the anxiety that has dogged our steps will eventually be a thing of the past.
2 – Ego
The fact that the ego-mind has not withered away is not cause for downheartedness. We spent eons building up the ego, and it will take some time to reverse the process. We need to realize that the ego gives us nothing that we want. Sure, we have flights of pleasure (we think “joy,” but it is not), but the pleasure is balanced with times of dejection. We always pay for our flights with tears of pain. Is this any way to live?
3 – Relinquish
I think not. We must be willing to relinquish egotistical attitudes, ask God for help, and then be reassured that we are asking in His will. He will help us. His help is a free offer; he wants to help. And then we will know the blessedness of peace that passeth understanding (from the Bible).
4 – Release
At any time that we are aware of an egotistical attitude, let us go within and release it to God. We would not dwell in fantasies of ego-inspired notions. We would let all of this foolishness go, and with the vacuum, God himself will inspire us to listen to our Christ/Self, which never acts or thinks from egotism.
I would release whatever fear I still have in me today. Not tomorrow, but today. Help me to do my part to accomplish this.
May my ego-mind just disappear in the light of Your sun. Your light gives true vision, and it is true vision that I would seek today.