“While God is nothing but the Source of Love, you have, in your doubt, made of God the source of fear. Pause a moment here and let the enormity of this confusion sink in, for this is the reversal in thinking that will pave the way for all the rest. Because of this confusion you have responded to Creation with fear. Is it no wonder a new response is asked of you? (The Treatises of A Course of Love: Treatise on the Art of Thought, 4.26)”
Affirmation: “I now choose to let fear of God melt away.”
1 – Fear of God
“Fear” of God, in the Bible, is, to my own of interpreting, actually a form of respect that is asked of us. But along the way, we have also feared God in a more concrete way, in that we have been made anxious when we thought of Him. This fear was of the ego, for the ego knew only fear, having been made out of a separated state (an illusory separated state) of being. We became so used to fear that we did not even realize the extent to which we were dominated by it.
2 – Blaming God
We blamed God for this fear, because our ego could not accept that we ourselves had made the fear (through the ego). So we were in a quandary. We did not know how to escape the ego, and we may, as students of Freud, believed that the ego was necessary for our successful living in this world.
3 – Freud’s Definition of the Ego
Freud’s definition of the ego is not quite what A Course in Miracles means. For Freud, the ego mediated between the superego and the id, and gave the personality stability. In A Course in Miracles, the ego is seen as a false self, a part of ourselves that has gone awry, a belief about ourselves that does not mean us well. And so, with this understanding, we want to rid ourselves as quickly as possible from a false sense of self that the ego perpetuates. We do not need this self-image to form our personality in such a way that it can function in the world. It is a persona, a self-image, that is best let fall away.
4 – Personal Self
When the ego has withered away, the personal self will change greatly. I have earlier called this personal self, the “little” self. And indeed it is little, for it partakes of illusion. We still live in this dream, this maya, this illusion, but the real world will dawn on our inner sight as a little more time goes by. Then the inner Self/Christ, the elevated Self of form, will take predominance.
5 – At Home
And we will be home in God.
I would be at home with You today. Thank You for the good beginning to this glorious day. May my day go well. May I say and do for my significant others what they need. May I be there for them.
Help us to respect You, but not to be afraid of You. Surely it would be disappointing to You to see Your children cringe in fear before You. May I love You unreservedly. And may I love with respect but not fear. I sometimes feel awe, and I understand from A Course in Miracles that this is alright.
Be with me throughout this day. May I feel Your Presence in a tangible way. Thank You for the times in my life when I am conscious of Your Presence. And may this feeling overwhelm me today in a cocoon of love.