You Are Your Experience

1 – Day 31

“While you have been immersed in one level of experience you have been either knower or known. This is why experience has seemed to exist apart from you. You say, ‘I had this experience’ or ‘I had that experience,’ as if you have ‘had’ contact and interaction with circumstances or events that are separate from the self. . . .The truth that you are the experience escapes you. (Dialogues of A Course of Love, Day 31)”

2 – Embodying Our Experiences

We are the experiences of which we are apart. We embody them, much as we think that our spirit embodies the physical form that is our body. We do not “have” experiences; we are them, because they transform us. And the extent to which the transformation comes from within is the extent to which we are aligned with inner forces, with the inner Christ Self.

3 – Transformation

We want transformation. All of us do. And we can have it when we give up fear. That is the salient factor. And to give up fear we simply must find out how we are to love each other, and also to love ourselves, and also to love God. All of this is One. Love is the Answer, as all religions have taught. But how do we come to love?

4 – Love

We remove all barriers to the experience of love. And the primary barrier is our own sense of insecurity, brought on by the egoic emphasis given fear. We surround ourselves with a hard casing that will protect. This casing is our defense. And A Course in Miracles tells us that we make what we defend against. So defense is not the answer. We need to realize that we are safe, and that we live in a safe world. Now, bad things happen all the time. But when we are at home in God, we will feel the pain, but we will not be immobilized by it.

5 – Pain

Some individuals who experience the most pain nevertheless have the greatest faith in times of turmoil. They see value in the bad experiences.

6 – No Need to Learn through Pain

ACIM says that we do not have to learn through pain. And so we don’t have to “be” experiences that are full of suffering. We can choose again, choose over. And in the better choosing, our suffering will drop away. Pain may drop away also, though if it is still with us it will miraculously become bearable.

7 – Mountain Top

“What the mountain top experience is helping you to see is that you are the experience. The mountain top experience did not happen to you or happen separately from you. It has happened and is happening within you. You are the experience and the experiencer, the knower and the known. This joining is the point of the experience and the key to experiencing wholeness. (A Course of Love: Dialogues, p. 209)”

8 – Summary

Day Thirty One functions as a summary of the thirty days that have preceded it. Jesus uses repetition deliberately and often to make his point.

9 – Joining

On Day Thirty One, we realize that “joining” has been what this trek to the mountain top, with simultaneously the experience of level ground, is to mean to us. We are One with our brothers and sisters, just as we are one within ourselves. The relationship that we share with others dovetails into union, one with another. This union is a manifestation of God. God is our point of unity, and we are all one with God. God is the essence of everything that we can see and know, and, moreover, all that we cannot see and know, but which is a part of the All.

10 – Separate from God?

Previously in our lives we knew only separation, and this includes a perceived (but inaccurate) sense that we were separate from God. Now we recognize how wrongheaded this thinking was. We were thinking only, thinking with our minds. Now our spirits have joined with our minds in wholeheartedness and with the realization that we are ready for the next step in spiritual evolution. Jesus will not disappoint us. He, as our companion, will lead us to discover what awaits in the final days of our mountain top experience.

11 – Knower and Knowee

“All experience is a product of knower and knowee. It is the One Self knowing itself as one individuated Self. (Dialogues of A Course of Love, Day 31)”

12 – Repetition

This is a repetition of earlier statements made by Jesus. His repetition is deliberate, as he knows that repetition works. This quotation emphasizes that God individuated Himself in order to experience Himself, forming parts of the Whole as a way of experiencing. The One Self is God Himself, differentiated into the myriad parts of the universe(s).

13 – Hologram

And we are a hologram. We have the Whole deep within ourselves, for God is within. But we are the one individuated Self, for we do not yet have the union that is God. We are the relationship, but not the union In time we will also become the union. That is what the oft-repeated words in A Course of Love, “unity and relationship,” really mean.

14 – Individuated Self

“For the individuated Self to experience separately from God is to negate the purpose of the experience of the Self which is God. To negate is to deny what is. The denial of what is is the source of separation. The acceptance of what is is the source of union and the ability to experience in wholeness. (Dialogues of A Course of Love, Day 31)”

15 – Turn Within

Do we want to experience as God does? Then we turn within, allowing the union between God and ourselves to happen. The final days of the 40 days and 40 nights emphasize how this transformation is possible. It becomes possible when we know Christ-consciousness, and not a moment beforehand—though we may catch glimpses of Awakening.

16 – What “Is”

How do we accept what “is”? We no longer wish for anything to be other than what it is. We can ask for a miracle, we can practice visualization and affirmations, we can invoke the law of attraction—but in the final analysis, this is not what we are about. All things are added to us when we seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness (from the New Testament). So we don’t waste our time trying to make our creature comforts more desirable to ourselves. They will fall in line as soon as our thinking is about God. There is no other way toward enlightenment. We accept what is. Pure and simple. We are willing to have it so, as Eastern religion encourages us. And then we have reached the pinnacle. We know, as we experience in wholeness.


Dear Father/Mother,

Help me to know–not to perceive, but to know–what it means to be One with You. My little mind is so inadequate to comprehend such a great truth. Help me to understand today.

God is within. I have long known that. And God is within the All. God is the All-in-One. May I know what it is to experience your personal caring, in the midst of the great universe of which I, along with my brothers and sisters, are a part.


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