“This faulty perception of union would keep you from the goal you seek, the goal that is no goal but your only reality, the natural state in which you exist but for your decision to reject your reality and your true nature. (ACOL, C:8.12)
When we seek to reach union by way of having the upper hand, the power, in our relationships, we seek amiss. This is the “faulty perception of union” to which this quotation points. Our true nature is found not here, but our true nature is our reality. And that nature is a Self that knows no judgment, no attack, and who seeks to love always. This true nature is the nature that we embody when we have changed consciousness to the consciousness reflected in Awakening. But we are not able to make this shift in consciousness solely of ourselves.
God makes this decision, of this we have been told often. We need to realize, though, that Awakening is God’s will for us, and thus our own will as well—for our two wills are actually one, always and forever. We might think that we are not worthy of God’s action toward us in Awakening, but this somewhat misstates the case. We have to let go of all things that stand in the way of Awakening. Only this much can we do. We cannot reach Awakening from a force of personal will.
We need to give up planning, to give up attack, to give up holding judgments one against the other.
Our planning now becomes only that which we deem in our deepest heart to be needed. This is the directive that comes from the inner Self, the guidance that is internal. Previously we relied on the Holy Spirit, and He is within as well, but we nevertheless saw His guidance as standing apart from our deepest Self. It was not thus, but we were not yet ready to conceive of the Almighty in any other way. This was the way of A Course in Miracles. Now we walk the way of A Course of Love. Where before we looked to the Holy Spirit, now we look to our inner Christ Self. The time of the Holy Spirit is ending, and we are in the time of the second coming of Christ. Hence the terminology differs.
Similarly, we also give up attack and holding judgment one against the other. The two concepts are usually linked in our minds, for we attack that which seems to be difference, and inferior, to ourselves, something against which we can judge as being “wrong.”
It is not really thus. The way that we are looking upon may be less enlightened than we wish to be, but we are actually all equal in the eyes of God. Only time separates us, and time does not really exist.
So if we do these three—give up planning against contingencies to come (as a defense), give up attack, and give up judgment—we will have done quite a lot to remove the barriers that have kept God from moving in our direction with Awakening. We cannot do this alone, though—never alone. We need His help, and His help is only a heartfelt request away.