“The body could not help but be thus, as it was made with dual purposes in mind. It was made to make real and then glorify a separated self, and it was made to punish that separated self for the separation. Its creator had in mind what is reflected in the body: self-aggrandizement and self-effacement, pleasure and pain, violence and gentleness. A desire to know everything but only through its own effort, a desire to see everything but only through its own eyes, a desire to be known but only through what it would choose to share. Alongside these desires it is easy to see how a world such as that of the body developed.” (ACOL, C:9.7)
We made the world that we see with egoic eyes. Our physical body, an illusion (of course), falls in line with the requirements of a life that is lived apart from God. This separation, though illusory, does in fact encourage self-aggrandizement as well as self-effacement, for the highs and lows of drama are an ever-present aspect of living in the world that we have made. One moment we are buoyed by some egotistical response to praise, and then we think, no, I don’t deserve this, for I am little more than dust beneath my feet. The ego swells only to retreat in confusion.
Our desire to live separately from God meant that we wanted to do everything from our own effort, to make our way through a world that God seemingly was excluded from. But this is unnatural. Failing to communicate with our Creator is unnatural. It is also very discouraging, for we fail and fail repeatedly when we seek to go it alone. This is the real reason that we fall so hard for a significant other with whom we want to form a special relationship. Recognizing, however dimly, that we are not meant to go it alone, we seek another body to walk with us.
There is often much disappointment in such a choice. Only when the special is transformed into the holy does our harried mind and heart, egoic still, find some measure of peace. And if we are paying attention to the personal self, the little egoic self, we won’t find a very long peace even then, for the drama will seem to pursue us. Only when we open our understanding to the way that our heart leads, and we open our mind to the inner Christ Self residing at the center of our being, will we know a lasting peace. This is what A Course of Love seeks to teach; this is what A Course of Love effects in its readers.
So communicate with the inner Christ Self, a part of God Himself. Don’t be satisfied to enjoy a momentary peace that passeth understanding. Seek to make that peace lasting. The world that the heart will open us to will surprise even the most sophisticated. We will be living in a new and different world, for our perceptions will have been cleansed. Knowledge of God’s way will infiltrate our being.