“Allow yourself, now, to experience your arrival, your return to your true home, your return to your Self. Laugh. Cry. Shout or wail. Dance and sing. Spin a new web. The web of freedom.
“In other words, express your Self!” (ACOL, D:Day9.2 – Day9.3)
Readers of A Course of Love, repeat readers especially, will certainly remember this passage. We are coming to praise our God, and our Self (too), for the many blessings that rain down upon us.
For so long we had not found what nourished us. But in A Course of Love, the course that emphasizes the heart, we are nourished repeatedly by its beautiful prose, its poetic prose. As we read, we move through a time of tenderness in which our emotions are kept ever close to the surface. This time of tenderness can actually seem emotionally painful to us, especially if we don’t have enough support in our journey. We discover in ACOL that we are not meant to go it alone, but to join with others of like-minded persuasion. And, in the end, we travel to a mystical mountaintop for 40 days and 40 nights of retreat, a retreat that is nevertheless in the heart of our lives.
We have sought and sought. Some of us felt at an impasse after years of reading A Course in Miracles. Our egos gone, or fading out, but what was to replace the ego? That question was not apparently answered in enough depth for Jesus to be satisfied; he returned 30 years later with A Course of Love. After ACIM had dislodged the ego, ACOL shows us how to establish a new identity. This new identity is the Christ-Self, a Self who has always dwelt within as a part of God. But we were too busy and preoccupied to commune with our depths. We still somehow believed that there was always something more to seek. And so our journey continued, with us never quite satisfied.
Jesus tells us in no uncertain terms that now we have found, and that we need seek no longer (even though seeking has become a habit hard to break). The prose of A Course of Love draws us in. We are mesmerized by its beauty of language. And the content, though dense in places, is repetitious enough to emphasize the main points over and over until they are a part of us.
Now: Let us rejoice! This is a day of celebration. We have not made an egoic choice, for the ego is gone from us. We are not experiencing the highs and lows of egoic drama. We are calm, but, oh, so happy. So joyous! We owe a lot to Jesus, the one who holds our hand anytime we ask. And he is pleased in our joy.
Thank You for the gift of A Course of Love. The words draw me in, sooth me, as I reread. With every pass through the book, I gain more insight. This is the joy of continuing dialogue with Jesus, a dialogue that extends to all of our brothers and sisters.
Be with me on this day of rejoicing. I may not shout, but others may. And in our joy, we all join as one.