“Thus your ideas of the universe and your ideas of me have been inseparable projections. As have your ideas of the universe and your ideas of your own self.
“Have I been a benevolent God in your universe? Then you have been benevolent and seen your universe as a benevolent universe.
“Have I been a judgmental God in your universe? Then you have been judgmental and lived in a judgmental world.
“Have I been a powerful God who can work miracles? Then you have been a powerful miracle worker.
“Have I been a distant God who does not show his love for you or others? Then you have been distant from yourself and those you love.
“Have I been a God you have sought and never found? Then you have not found yourself.
“Have I been a fair God? Then you have been fair and the world has treated you fairly.
“Have I been the God of your religion? Then you have been religious.
“Have I been a God of vengeance? Then you have been vengeful.
“Have I been a God of love? Then you have been loving.
“Have I been all of these? So, too, then, have you, and so too has your universe been.” (ACOL, D:Day39.19 – Day39.29)
Jesus is saying that our projections onto him have been a reflection of how we see God Himself. And it has been projections. What we have held in our heart, we have seen in him—when we took him seriously as a part of our faith.
Jesus seemed to me to be judgmental. I know that I don’t see myself, now nor in the past, as judgmental, but I have been keen on “fairness,” and this is a judgment. Someone once told me, a friend in childhood, that he had had a dream in which I had screamed, “It isn’t fair!” I realized as soon as he said it that he was seeing something in my very soul. And I felt uncomfortable. I didn’t like to be seen so clearly at that tender age of about 12.
Read over this list, and see where you see yourself. This can be very insightful, as well as disturbing.
The good news in A Course of Love is that this doesn’t have to be something that we stay with. We can give up our projections as easily as we acquired them, a largely unconscious process.
Just ask to feel love as an extension of our being and of God’s Being. And the projections will melt away.
Help me to project no more. Never a good idea, it is devastating as we seek to walk into Christ-consciousness. Our love needs to be whole and complete, nothing that inferior ways of viewing You could allow.
Be with me for a good day, something that I ask often. The day is busy, but I never want to lose sight of You.