“How can what continues to give in to fear know love? All your reasons for fear-based living have been discounted one by one. And yet you dare not try to live without it. Why? Because of the thoughts of the ego-mind. The ego-mind is concerned only with its own survival but it has you convinced it is your survival that depends on it. How can you be convinced to live as if the truth were otherwise? For only if you begin to live as if the truth were otherwise can you see that it truly is otherwise, or based on a wisdom other than what has come before.” (A Course of Love, T1:3.5)
We tremble in fear when we make short forays in to trying to live without fear. Fear seems a given, something that will protect us.
We are misinformed. Fear is not necessary for our continued survival in this sometimes harsh world. The reason that we think that fear is needed is the lingering influence of the ego-mind, the insane part of us that continues to dwell just below the surface of our good sense.
The ego is gone from us when we have assimilated the truths of A Course of Love. We may not realize this, we may still struggle. But the ego only has a residue of false thinking that continues to infiltrate our moments of reflection. We have always thought with the ego-mind, and so to hear Jesus say in ACOL that we are done with the ego is immediately enough to raise doubts in our minds. How can we be done with the ego? We see its influence constantly.
We need to let go. We need to trust what Jesus is telling us. If he says that the ego is no more for us, then let the mind rest in that knowledge—for it is knowledge, not perception. Just rest. And the truth of the elimination of the ego will dawn on a calmer mind in ourselves.
A greater wisdom is available to us, and we ought to take advantage of that greater wisdom forthwith. Let the smudge of ego on our minds be lightened by our prayer consideration that perhaps the ego is just a mirage, seeming to be ahead of us on our pathway, but actually not representing anything but illusion.