Choosing a pathway without suffering may take longer, and so is it any wonder that we in our impatient world sometimes opt for the shortcut, however difficult that may be?
“I think I choose sickness when I’m ready for a break from the world.” A day after writing this, I came down with a virus that gave me a fever and mild aches for a week.
My pipe dream that I could be happy just reading all day quickly evaporated, and in its place came a great need for people, which sent me to the phone. When I wrote those words,did I know I was getting sick, just below the surface in my unconscious mind, or was I doubly psychic (intuiting sickness and giving my reason for it)?
It is also true that I was at a turning point in my work, ready to take a new direction after finishing the tasks of the past months.
Was God trying to get my attention?
It is only in retrospect that the answers to questions like these ever come.