“Certainly sickness does not appear to be a decision. Nor would anyone actually believe he wants to be sick. (M-22.4)”
Affirmation: “I would be well today.”
1 – The Desire to Be Sick
Sickness seems to get us something that we want. That is its only purpose. If we want to stay home from work, if we want sympathy, if we want love–we think that sickness will grant these desires.
2 – Sicknesses Are Chosen
But we conveniently forget, and cannot retrieve that it is ourselves that makes this decision. We do not actually believe that some of the more horrific illnesses are chosen.
3 – An Explanation of Illness
And we are right–on one level. It is not our personal self (usually) that chooses these sicknesses. It is our Self, the part of us that we don’t have access to all the time. But the Self gives us what we have, unconsciously, asked for. God will still protect us from the very worst, knowing that when we ask for some things, we ask amiss. His protection is always there, knowing not to give us more than we can withstand. But the personal self longs for some of the sicknesses that we encounter, seeing them as learning devices. And our personal self is not really wrong, for we do often learn from illness.
4 – Learning through Pain = Temporary
There is a better way, though. Learning through pain is always temporary (a Text tenet). Learning from rewards leads to permanent learning. And it is this permanent learning that we need to request.
I would choose the state of wellness today. This is my personal self speaking, but it is also a request that my Self choose a way for me to learn that will keep me free of bodily or mental incapacity. I would choose to learn in a “permanent” fashion, and Jesus tells us that learning through pain is always temporary. Learning through rewards is lasting, and it is this learning through rewards that I would choose today.
Be with me as I seek to understand these concepts from A Course in Miracles. We do not blame the victim, regardless of how we come to understand. We know that there is a Self who is in charge. To the extent that our personal self helps the Self to make decisions, let us will today to walk Your Way of wellness and wholeness, in body, mind, and spirit.