“In unity, all that you desired was participated in fully by a mind and heart combined in wholeheartedness. You knew your Self to be the creator, and loved all that you created. You did not desire and fear something at the same time, and your desires did not change from moment to moment.” (A Course of Love, C:18.14)
We are now living eons past the time of “first” unity. This first experience of unity cannot really be recaptured as a sense impression now, but it can be recaptured as we move farther along the pathway back to God. We lived eons ago in wholeheartedness, knowing ourselves as a creator, a co-creator (if you will), of God Himself. But because of something that couldn’t really happen, but did (the “tiny mad idea” that A Course in Miracles discusses), we fell from grace into an adolescent rebellion. We weren’t patient enough to come into the fullness of our Being, our Self. So we coalesced around a false persona, driven by an ego that we made ourselves, and we fell into deep despair as a result.
We can return to the unity that we have forgotten. It takes patience and abundant willingness to capture what we have lost, but the recapture is God’s intention for us, and so he is right there helping us every step along the way.
Don’t get depressed that the way seems too long and tortuous. It may be long, but the way is not tortuous at all. Not with all the help that we are being given. Our way back is assured—indeed, has always been assured, from the beginning. God’s will only takes time in the working out, and time does not really exist, for we live in eternity.