“Uncertainty of any kind is doubt about your self. This is why this Course aims to establish your identity, for from it all the rest will come. (A Course of Love, 12.8)”
1 – How Often?
How often are we uncertain? I would venture to guess that this state of mind happens very frequently. We don’t know which way to turn. If we have been students of A Course in Miracles, we know to turn to the Holy Spirit for guidance. Now that we are studying A Course of Love, we know to turn inward to the Christ/Self within. But do we yet believe that the inner self is really the inner Self/Christ?
2 – Christ Within
Probably not. And that is what brings on the doubt. We don’t really believe that we are good enough to hold Christ within us. It is true that he is hidden from us when we are obstreperous, attacking, and angry–but we are (are we not?) learning to move beyond such undesirable states of mind and heart. We are listening to our heart, something that we have done sporadically all of our lives. We are listening to our heart if we are following the recommendation of ACOL.
3 – Perfection
The doubt that we are good enough to hold the Christ inside will fall away as we accept the good news that Jesus is telling us. He assures us that we do not have to be perfect. We only need to identify which character traits we would relinquish, and then it is done for us. The intention is all. And then the doubt will fall away. We know that all of our brothers and sisters, likewise, hold Christ within. We are not unique. This assurance will help us to realize that we are not lost in grandiose dreams. We are instead encouraged to accept the grandeur of our being, the grandeur that God welcomes us as His children, eventually as co-creators with Him. And when the Self who is within, the Christ who is within, is accepted fully, we will not have any sense of false humility, not any false humility that is actually arrogance that we cannot be as good as God has created us.
4 – Accept Others
When we establish our identity as the Self/Christ that we are within, we will reach out with more acceptance of other people. We frequently act badly because of a poor self-image, and this poor self-image will vanish in the glory of recognizing who we really are. Then our Self will move to create the elevated Self of form, and we will not be quite so ready to denigrate the physical in our lives. Yes, the physical is an illusion, but the illusion is quite solid to us, and to deny this fact is a particularly unfortunate type of denial.
May I move closer to a full acceptance of the Christ/Self within me, as he/she is within all of us. May I not feel that to think this way is arrogance, but actually not to think this way is arrogance. Would we deny what we are learning about who we really are? Who Jesus is teaching us that we really are?
Jesus has told us that we are the same as he. And yet we find this difficult to accept. May we seek forgiveness for our stubborness, a forgiveness that we need to grant ourselves, for God does not condemn and therefore does not need to forgive us. We do not need to condemn ourselves either.
Be with me today as I ponder these deep truths from A Course of Love. There is little doubt that I can attract whatever I wish, and today I wish for Your mercy. Be with me as I seek to reach for the stars, even as all of us reach for the stars. This is not arrogance or grandiosity, but the sanest sense. Thank You for leading Jesus to guide us to this knowledge.