“Without your vigilance it [the ego] may even seem to have become stronger than before and fiercer in its criticism. It pretends to hold you to new standards, only to use what you have learned to increase your guilt. Thus it wins in daily battles and works for your final abdication, the day that you give up and admit defeat. It challenges your right to happiness and love and miracles, and seeks only to have you claim that living with such fantasies does not work and will not ever be possible here. (A Course of Love, 2.19)”
Affirmation: “happiness and love and miracles”
1 – Reminiscent of ACIM
This passage reflects the attitude of A Course of Love in regard to the ego, an attitude that is in agreement with A Course in Miracles. The ego was dislodged by our study of ACIM, and this previous reading was necessary as a precursor to A Course of Love. (Mari Perron herself, the scribe, read A Course in Miracles seven times prior to channeling ACOL.) But we need to go beyond just dislodging the ego, and that is, I believe, why Jesus channeled the later work, A Course of Love. We need his definition fo “wholeheartedness” to replace the void that perhaps we have felt with no dependence on the ego. We have to step forward and let the heart take over a bit from the mind. We do not ignore the mind, but we combine the heart and the mind into what Jesus calls “wholeheartedness.” So mind and heart work in conjunction with each other.
2 – Mind & Heart = Wholeheartedness
The paragraph above is a paraphrase of a good bit of what is told us in the opening pages of ACOL. If we can keep these distinctions between mind and heart and wholeheartedness close to ourselves, we will come a long way toward understanding the new way of learning, dubbed “observation.” But in this first volume of ACOL we are still learning in a somewhat anomalous way.
3 – The Ego = the Nemesis
As Jesus describes the ego, a part of our belief about ourselves, the ego sounds a lot like previous conceptions of the “devil.” Yet all of this idea is internal. There is not outer devil, in the understanding of A Course in Miracles and A Course of Love. We do it all to ourselves (though we do not blame the victim, as the Self makes decisions that the personal self knows not of). We would recognize that in an egoic world, we cannot conceive of the good without the bad, God without the devil. And this is also madness. But it is the way that our minds work. We need to better than this, and we can when we study ACIM and ACOL.
4 – Into the Time of Christ
We do have a right to happiness, love, and miracles. And we would do well to step forward to claim that right. The Christ within us, the Self, will guide us as we move beyond the time of the Holy Spirit, into the time of Christ.
5 – Move Forward
And may we move willingly, not clinging to the past because it is all that we have known.
I would spend today being sweeter, and this means that I look aside from the ego. I don’t resist the ego, for that would increase its power in my life–but I just turn away, focusing on the love that is at the center of my being. I focus on the Self/Christ that is internal to me. I focus on the happiness and love and miracles that are mine to choose. And they are mine to choose. We do not have to live a paltry life. Glorious blessings are our birthright.
Be with me today as I seek to be a sweeter person. That is all that one member of my family ever asked of me, and I have remembered his blessing fondly. His desire was in stark contrast to the push to “succeed” and to “achieve” that everyone else in my family wanted.
But You want us only to follow Your pathway, and Your pathway is a way of ease and the cessation of difficulty. You will lead us to every miracle that You have saved for us. Our health can improve daily, our dispositions as well. And we can be the sweet creatures that You, too, want us to be.