“Doubt is the result of conflicting wishes. Be sure of what you want, and doubt becomes impossible. (M-7.6)”
Affirmation: “I am sure of what I want.”
1 – “When in Doubt, Don’t”
I have often said to myself, “When in doubt, don’t.” While this may seem like a very laidback attitude to take toward actions being contemplated, it works for me. My unconscious (not available to me) does seem to indicate when a given course of action is not to be taken. Whether or not this is direct guidance from the Holy Spirit is a question in my mind. Normally, I sense the Holy Spirit has an inner voice or an intuition, and this warning, “When in doubt, don’t,” seem somehow different. A Course in Miracles says in today’s passage that I am feeling conflicting wishes, and, for me, this means that the course of action being contemplated may be way off-base. So I choose not to follow the pathway that is beckoning, perhaps because the ego is involved at that moment.
2 – Conflicting Wishes
My conflicting wishes do suggest to me when not to pray for a given outcome. I once wanted something very badly, but, with the exception of a span of two or three days, I never got the “green light” to pray for this outcome that I thought I wanted. Now I know that my childhood and early adulthood did not prepare me for all that my desired outcome would have demanded. I had personal challenges that would not have made this superficial, but intense, desire good for all involved. I can report that I did not pray for that outcome, because the prohibition was direct and unequivocal. And my life later took a turn that was far more suited for my talents and even my ambitions.
3 – God’s Will = Our Real Will
We do not really want things that are not in line with God’s Will. We are told in A Course in Miracles that God’s Will and our will are identical, that the Holy Spirit choose for us. The Holy Spirit knows all circumstances–past, present, and future–that will affect a given choice. We have given up our judgment to Him, because He knows in a way that is impossible for us. And when we have given up our judgment, we know peace. The lamentable aspects of our world, we are told in the Manual, are present because judgment is so much a part of this world. May we take the first tentative steps today away from personal judgment, and invite the Holy Spirit to lead our next step.
Right now I am in conflict. So the action that I am thinking of taking may be wrong for me. I am, over the years, tested out this reaction numerous times. So let me be sure before I act.
Help me to have a good day. There are many things on my agenda for this week, and the week seems daunting. Yesterday was daunting as well, but all turned out to be just fine.
May today be no less.