“Impossible learning goals lead to depression. This is why we must learn anew with a mind and heart joined in wholeheartedness. (A Course of Love, 31.13)”
Affirmation: “May I avoid depression today by not seeking impossible learning goals.”
1 – Egoic Goals
We have all too often sought to learn things that are impossible for us to learn. These were goals of the ego.
2 – A Better Way
But Jesus assures us that there is a better way. We do not have to get depressed, trying to learn something strange that is not “for us” at all, for we do want to leave the ego behind. The ego always leads to depression, for it is an idle thought that is not really idle. There are no idle thoughts, for all lead to form at some level (a tenet of A Course in Miracles).
3 – Wholeheartedness
May we seek the wholeheartedness that gives heart and mind in conjunction with each other. May our minds be so cleansed of egoic attitudes that we can listen to our hearts, and then we can invite the mind back into the equation with a major welcome.
4 – Heart Knows
The passage for today gives a major theme of A Course of Love. It is not a hard theme to learn. We know that the heart “knows” in a way that the mind does not. And we would be wise to listen to our hearts in lieu of convoluted thoughts of our minds. When the mind is cleansed, then is time enough to welcome it back, with great joy.
I would not court depression by seeking to learn things that are impossible to learn. I would forsake egoic goals forever, and I would take a stance today to do so. Depression is major life problem for many people, and it just may be that many of us thrive–or fail to thrive–because we are ego-oriented. The ego is always being undone. It is always that way. For every up moment, there is a down one, and the down ones ultimately predominate. I would be free of this foolishness forever.
Thank You for leading me to understand that the egoic goals that I courted in my youth and early adulthood were false thinking. I did not know any better. But now I do. And I pray to You that I will not let myself be misled by a part of myself–the ego–that refuses to wither away. I do not need the ego to live a fully satisfactory life, and, indeed, I cannot kowtow to the ego and still lead a satisfactory life. The ego as defined here is a false way of viewing life, not the organizing principle that another definition would have it be.
May I just turn aside from ego ideals. May I not actively resist them, for the ego become strong in strife. Be with me as I seek to take my place as an equal among peers. There is no need to seek for superiority, for superiority is a false value. All talents will one day be shared equally among Your children.