On self-tolerance and self-acceptance: “I remember waking up one morning with the thought, ‘A lot of us believe in a world where everything is not a matter of life and death.’ It seemed a thought from the other side, a plea for common sense in decision-making. Maybe I need to meditate on why I have such a problem with a ‘should.’
Am I too irresponsible? Am I not dependable? Am I innately lazy and try to whip myself into shape by manufacturing imperatives?
Have I accepted a big challenge in this lifetime and probably take myself too seriously in trying to work it out?
Do I fear regretting to work as hard as I can?
Do I just have too strong a superego?”
Later . . .
“I know now that if I forgive more readily, I will realize the world can forgive me as well when I don’t measure up to some standard of unreachable perfection.”