“In preparing for the holy instant, do not attempt to make yourself holy to be ready to receive it. That is but to confuse your role with God. Atonement cannot come to those who think that they must first atone, but only to those who offer it nothing more than simple willingness to make way for it. Purification is of God alone, and therefore for you. (T-18.IV.5)”
This is another of the very reassuring passages in A Course in Miracles. We don’t need to “do” anything to “get ready” for Atonement. We just need to be open to receive. God will do the rest. He makes the decision about when we are ready for enlightenment, Awakening. He (metaphorically) reaches down to lift us up, and then nothing is ever the same again—nothing, that is, if we sustain the Awakening. We will in all likelihood have glimpses of Awakening from time to time before we will respond wholeheartedly enough to sustain what is happening to us.
Nobody can tell you what Awakening is really like, until those glimpses have come. Jesus does say one thing of great importance, the dawning on our minds at this point that “I need do nothing!” This is a masterful signal to our minds and hearts that God does not require things of us. He only wants us as we were created to be. We will want to do things for God, once we are Awakened, but we will know that nothing takes the place of the glorious sense that we are accepted just as we are, because we don’t have to merit anything.